EL, Berlin, 6-5-'08
The content of what's given in an esoteric class isn't much different
from what's given in an exoteric one — it's the way that it's
give that's different. An esoteric shouldn't just imbibe information.
Every class should be an experience of his soul. At the end of a class
we should be different from what we were before it.
In esoteric schools they used to say: If you don't know whether you
should do something or not, don't do it. But one can't say this to an
exoteric, because he'd get lazy and wouldn't get experiences. One
finds the following exchange in a Rosicrucian book: The pupil's heart
asks the teacher: How do I find the path to higher development? The
teacher answers: When you find the place that's free from all personal
things. The pupil's heart asks: Where do I find this place? The
teacher: In your I that wills without self, and that thinks without
sense perception. Question: How can I will without a self, how can I
think without senses? Answer: Will without I, think outside of your
People often ask whether it wouldn't be better to use the time that
one uses for development for doing good deeds in the world. But
occultists must reply that time that's spent on development isn't
wasted. For a man can only work well and rightly for mankind by making
himself more perfect. Outer deeds that seem to be ever so good can be
harmful; one just doesn't know it. There's chaos in our soul now; we
must develop it into an organism, just as our body was made into a
well structured organism through the wisdom of higher beings. We
attain this by bringing certain lines and figures before our souls and
finding out what they mean. (See the previous lesson.) The three upper
dots have come together voluntarily; reflected over into the soul
element they make themselves into a triangle with sides.
a=devotion, leading up to the Gods; i=a particular direction that's supposed to lead to the divine; o= the all embracing God-head; the embracing of revealed form; u=resting in the Godhead and feeling protected in divine peace; e=a streaming in from far distant spaces (overcoming of difficulties); ei=divine revelation into men before which one retreats shyly with reverence; oe=same as ei but more so. A man feels that he's enclosed in his body with the active Gods outside.