112. EL, Norrkoeping, 5-30-'12
Introductory words in memory
of Mrs. Danielson, who died a few months earlier. In a soul's bright moments
in the spiritual world it feels united with those who were striving
towards the same thing that it was, and the streams of love that are
sent to it from here create these luminous moments for it.
She's active in the interests of theosophical matters as an
angel who makes a connection between theosophists in the north and
those in central Europe.
Thursday prayer. About
individuality and shame. About the conclusions we should draw from
this. We should look upon all of this as something that concerns our
own personality. Descriptions of our own being. About the feeling of
one's inner being; as if a flask with water were heated from an
inner point, and one felt this warmth of the water as if one were the
feeling water oneself. How this warmth must then permeate is used as
a means of support for esoteric training, and so is abstinence from
alcohol and meat. One's spiritual being becomes ever greater
and expands out into the cosmos. About the feelings of devotion and
reverence. Two forces: angels demons Christ. How esoteric development
proceeds. About visions. Indications that it's going correctly;
fear, unsteadiness, the ground being pulled out from under
one's feet. A feeling of shame, but not of egoism should arise
thereby. The counter-forces that a pupil must oppose this with.
One who does the exercises
correctly will sooner or later notice the appearance of certain
effects. One can tell whether the effects are right or wrong by
certain accessory phenomena. If these particular side-phenomena
appear, then it's a correct development even if no visions,
pictures, colors or light-effects appear. Whether the accessory
phenomena can appear is up to one's karma. The teacher can
point to the path but he can't remove hindrances.
A human soul's wish for
visions and phenomena is often a hindrance to all progress. And if
men have them, it's also a mistake to be satisfied with them
and to not want to strive further.
First one feels that something
becomes alive within one. This feeling is as if we were in water in a
vessel with a source of warmth at its center that streams through the
water. We must then feel this warmth with our whole being.