105. EL, Mannheim, 3-10-'12
result of meditation is that we get a feeling that we're making
contact with beings in the higher hierarchies; we experience this as
a warm, vital feeling of being taken into higher worlds, as an
arrival at the place where we originated. The feeling of being
admitted to the spiritual world must be warm and vital.
concepts, feelings and knowledge must become different in an
was given to us by Luciferic beings.
who are thrifty in physical life are often very wasteful in their
soul-spiritual life. We should be economical with these forces and
transform them into seeing forces. Only self-knowledge can lead us to
this. We spray out our feelings and emotions too selflessly from morn
first pass through egoism in the soul-spiritual domain There is a
danger that by trying to enter the spiritual world one will also
become egotistical in the physical world. That's why moral and
intellectual purification go hand in hand in a correct training.
should realized that the impossible is being demanded of us esoterics
and that we're striving for the impossible. All such striving
is impossible, and being unegotistical is also impossible.
for knowledge and progress is not the right thing for an esoteric.
The right thing is an earnest feeling that it's our duty to
develop, for the Divine Spirit has placed forces in us that he
develops without our help; these are passive forces. But the Godhead
has also placed active forces in us that a man must actively develop
himself. And it's the greatest sin against the Divine spirit to
not develop the forces that the Godhead has placed in us for the good
of the evolution and progress of mankind. These forces in us are so
strong that they lead us into the spiritual world — though it may
take years and so we mustn't get impatient, but should tell
ourselves: I'll wait, for I know that these forces do
this — if we're just devoted to the spiritual world in the
Accessory exercises develop qualities that are necessary for the
physical plane, such as thought control, equanimity, etc.
Eventually we'll have a place in our heart or soul in which we
preserve our most sacred things, in which we're esoterics,
whereas in outside life we stand on the physical plane. Of course
this doesn't happen without a battle. As esoterics we must
Thoughts that storm in on us are the spiritual world's beings
who flutter around us, and the more we try to keep them away, the
more they storm in on us. We shouldn't complain about this. One
can tell a pupil to be glad that this is so, for it's a result
of meditation that shows that thoughts are a spiritual power.
Courage, fearlessness and confidence are what an esoteric needs.